We Can Only Go Forward Every Day: 2025 In Review

The first ten-year anniversary I remember caring about was Jimmy Eat World’s Clarity, in 2009. The album came out when I was seven, but by the time I was seventeen, it had attained legendary status to a burgeoning emo obsessive. I remember playing the CD on the bus, my disappointment when I couldn’t go to Chicago for the anniversary tour, and my jealousy when a friend texted me from the show.

Anniversary tours have become kind of passé since then, often feeling less like a celebration than an easy cash-in (not that I begrudge anyone who can make a buck playing music), but I still tend to have a good time with them. This year, though, the anniversaries felt different. It’s not my teenage years I’m looking back on now, but times when I was already fully an adult, working and living in Chicago. That made the memories of No Closer To Heaven and Tell Me I’m Alright and The Force Awakens feel both closer and further away somehow.

These anniversaries also all came amid a very full 2025.

Lily was born in February, so Liesi and I spent the early part of the year navigating having two kids under two and everything else that comes with a new baby. I was very worried about being overwhelmed, but between Lily definitely being the easier of our two babies and having done it all once before, it ended being less challenging and more fun than I could have hoped. (Until we all got sick the week before Christmas — that was very challenging and not fun).

I also kept busy with creative projects, even though the list below isn’t long. Matt and I have been doing Noise Floor for well over a year now, and recording is still something I look forward to every week. All of my bands were writing and working on other cool ideas too, so lots more to come on both the music and podcast fronts in 2026.

Stuff I Made This Year

  • Noise Floor – A weekly music discussion podcast I co-host with Matt Kistler
  • “Richardson” Richardson – The Wizard’s Riff (mixing, mastering)

Music

My year on Last.fm
I really do try to listen widely, but if you’ve followed these lists for a few (or, oh god, 17) years, there are a lot of familiar names at the top. Among the 130-ish new albums I checked out this year, I was most drawn to the new entries in the careers of artists I’ve long loved. This isn’t just falling back on old favorites, I don’t think — many of these artists have released duds over the years and found their way back by making something fresh and vital. I’m especially interested in how these artists that I’ve grown up with confront aging in their music. I rang in my 34th year with a Motion City Soundtrack song that wrestles with “[putting] on the nostalgia crown” and the lingering feeling that your best days are behind you. Happy birthday, right?

But nearly every album I loved this year has something to do with growing older. La Dispute decamped to Australia to explore the rediscover the sonic and poetic intensity of their early albums, the band playing like their younger selves while Jordan Dreyer’s lyrics question how much control we actually have over our lives. Yellowcard wrote about the joy and anxiety of becoming a parent, while Suzzallo worked through the unfathomable grief of losing a child. There are reunions, like the first Spitalfield and Moving Mountains music in over a decade and the Crutchfield sisters teaming up again in Snocaps, and there are solo efforts released in novel formats: Hayley Williams’s Ego Death At a Bachelorette Party showed up online one summer day, free of expectations, with no tracklist, on a Windows 98-style website. It was both a weaponization and confrontation of nostalgia, and the songs are so good.

I did discover some new bands I loved this year. Beauty School pulled me in with a Dan Campbell feature, and I spun that album a ton. G Flip’s “I Don’t Wanna Regret It” had me rolling down the minivan windows for months. The Armed hollowed out my skull with some of the most exciting, chaotic music I’ve heard in a long time.

I found so much to love in music this year. I’ll go into more detail on the next episode of Noise Floor, but for now, here are the lists. Give something a spin.

My Favorite Albums of 2025

  1. La Dispute – No One Was Driving the Car
  2. Suzzallo – The Quiet Year
  3. Motion City Soundtrack – The Same Old Wasted Wonderful World
  4. Hayley Williams – Ego Death At a Bachelorette Party
  5. Moving Mountains – Pruning of the Lower Limbs
  6. Coheed and Cambria – Vaxis III: The Father of Make Believe
  7. Hot Mulligan – The Sound a Body Makes When It’s Still
  8. The Mountain Goats – Through This Fire Across From Peter Balkan
  9. Yellowcard – Better Days
  10. Beauty School – From Now On
  11. Snocaps – Snocaps
  12. The Armed – The Future Is Here and Everything Needs To Be Destroyed
  13. All Get Out – Side A
  14. G Flip – Dream Ride
  15. Pool Kids – Easier Said Than Done
  16. Lambrini Girls – Who Let the Dogs Out
  17. Jason Isbell – Foxes In the Snow
  18. Elway – Nobody’s Going To Heaven
  19. Lorde – Virgin
  20. The World Is a Beautiful Place and I Am No Longer Afraid To Die – Dreams of Being Dust
  21. Laura Stevenson – Late Great
  22. Empty Heaven – Swear
  23. Bon Iver – SABLE, fABLE
  24. Winona Fighter – My Apologies To the Chef
  25. Weakened Friends – Feels Like Hell

My Favorite EPs of 2025

  1. Spanish Love Songs – A Brief Intermission In the Flattening of Time
  2. The Wonder Years – Burst and Decay (Volume III)
  3. Spitalfield – Play + Record
  4. The Paradox – NSFW
  5. Harrison Gordon – Spring Break

Live Shows

My Big Show Spreadsheet
I attended or played 24 shows this year. I’m cheating a bit on this list, admittedly, because I had too many great experiences to pick just five sets. I got to see the Wonder Years twice, send Foxing off (for now), and scream “Brutal” with a zillion teenagers, among so much more. This year’s Riot Fest was my favorite yet, whether I was seeing Rilo Kiley and Texas Is the Reason for the first time, coming out of mosh retirement for Knuckle Puck, or just hanging with all the friends I’ve made through shows over the years.

And then there’s Adjy.

I had been trying to see Adjy since before the pandemic, but the timing of their tours never worked out until this summer. I ventured out well past my bedtime to see them in the tiny back room of Cole’s Bar, on a stage that could barely contain their six members and at least as many keyboards and mallet percussion instruments. It was transcendent. There are so few bands in the world that transport me the way Adjy does, taking me back to all the places I’ve fallen in love with music since I was a kid, from the Coffeehouse to the dusty fields of Cornerstone Festival to the massive arenas that Adjy deserves to headline (and even those couldn’t hold the grandeur of The Idyll Opus). Maybe I’m overselling this band, but maybe not. When I saw them a second time in October, it was with a bunch of friends who can all now vouch that they are actually that good.

  1. Adjy at Cole’s (and also at Reggie’s with Future Teens)
  2. Riot Fest: Rilo Kiley, Texas Is the Reason, The Wonder Years, Knuckle Puck, and more
  3. The Wonder Years (Burst and Decay Tour) at Thalia Hall
  4. Lollapalooza: Bleachers, Olivia Rodrigo, Orla Gartland, and more
  5. Foxing and Pool Kids at Thalia Hall

Movies

My year on Letterboxd
I saw, as of this writing, 26 new releases this year. The usual caveats: Too much comes out at the end of the year to keep up, and I’ll try to see all the big stuff by the Oscars. But will anything top Sinners and Weapons for me? Seems unlikely. Worth noting that I saw three of my top five in theaters, something I want to get back in the habit of doing as the kids get older.

  1. Sinners
  2. Weapons
  3. Eddington
  4. Wake Up Dead Man
  5. Black Bag
  6. 28 Years Later
  7. One Battle After Another
  8. No Other Choice
  9. Bugonia
  10. Thunderbolts*

TV

I stopped paying for Trakt VIP when they doubled their prices, so I don’t get the fancy recap page, but that won’t stop me from making a list. I once again tried to keep my TV intake to returning favorites and only start new shows that seem particularly interesting or critically lauded (both true of Pluribus and Adolescence). Season 2 of Andor was a runaway favorite for so many reasons, but primarily because it’s proof that there are still relevant stories to tell in my favorite sci-fi and fantasy worlds.

  1. Andor (Season 2)
  2. Pluribus (Season 1)
  3. Adolescence (Season 1)
  4. The Bear (Season 4)
  5. Slow Horses (Season 5)

Podcasts

My year on Overcast
Blank Check dominant, no surprise there. It’s still my favorite podcast after three years of listening.

I really do listen to every episode of my own podcast — if I start getting bored of it then I assume everyone else will too.

Also, I’ll shout out my favorite new podcast of the year, In the Key of Brie, a delightful and insightful interview show that has introduced me to a ton of great music.

Books

My year on Goodreads
I read 31 books this year, a lot of which was catching up on Brandon Sanderson’s Cosmere. In a surprising turn, my two favorite reads of 2025 were new releases.

Mark Z. Danielewski has been my favorite author since I read House of Leaves at the tail end of high school. Tom’s Crossing has very little in the way of the ergodic structure or crazy formatting that Danielewski is known for, but it’s still some of his best writing, with an immersive setting and a deep sense of care about the nature of stories and who gets to tell them.

If you care about music at all, Mood Machine is essential reading. Liz Pelly’s book is not only a great explanation of how (and why) the way we consume music today is broken. It will make you want to do something about it.

  1. Tom’s Crossing by Mark Z. Danielewski
  2. Mood Machine: The Rise of Spotify and the Cost of the Perfect Playlist by Liz Pelly
  3. Oathbringer by Brandon Sanderson
  4. O Pioneers! by Willa Cather
  5. Piranesi by Susanna Clarke

Next Year

I want to:

  • Release new music with all of my bands
  • Attend my 1000th show (only 25 to go)
  • Grow Noise Floor and guest on more podcasts
  • Run a half marathon

2015 Revisited

I was scrolling back through the archives recently and realized that I never actually made a list in 2015. I cited some albums I liked, but I hedged a whole bunch in the blurb about not being a critic and didn’t even rank them. Must have been having a weird winter. So as a decade-late update, here are my 15 favorite albums of 2015 (with the benefit of hindsight).

  1. The Wonder Years – No Closer To Heaven
  2. Desaparecidos – Payola
  3. mewithoutYou – Pale Horses
  4. The Mountain Goats – Beat the Champ
  5. The Sidekicks – Runners In the Nerved World
  6. Kendrick Lamar – To Pimp a Butterfly
  7. Jason Isbell – Something More Than Free
  8. Jeff Rosenstock – We Cool?
  9. Death Cab For Cutie – Kintsugi
  10. David Bowie – Blackstar
  11. Hop Along – Painted Shut
  12. Julien Baker – Sprained Ankle
  13. Sufjan Stevens – Carrie and Lowell
  14. Dawes – All Your Favorite Bands
  15. Knuckle Puck – Copacetic

Don’t let them make you go numb

Don’t let them dull your compassion

Don’t let them tell you you’re wrong

Don’t let them claim this is balance, no

Don’t let them question your love

-The Armed

It All Gets a Little Distorted In the Rearview: 2024 In Review

A few days ago, Liesi and I took Elliot to the park by our house to enjoy the year’s last offering of nice weather. 50 degrees at the golden hour in final throes of December — maybe it’s climate change, or just Illinois being Illinois, but you have to take advantage of those days when you get them. It felt like a lot of days this past fall, the best October weather we’ve had in years. Elliot was laughing like a madman while I rolled a soccer ball down a slide at him, and the year kind of snapped into place.

It was a full year, to say the least. Elliot is 18 months old now, and getting out of the newborn/infant stage and into full-on toddler mode has made parenting genuinely fun for me. Exhausting at times, sure, but seeing his personality grow and develop fills me with joy every day. We’re expecting our second in February, so the back half of the year has been a whirlwind of nerves and excitement and preparation to be a family of four.

This year also marked a decade of being what I’d call a real adult. 2014 was the year I released my first album, started dating Liesi, graduated college, went on my first tour, moved to Chicago, started my career, saw Jimmy Eat World play “23” on my 23rd birthday. I ticked off all of those “ten years ago” milestones with mixed feelings. Fondness for that year and all the growth it started, of course, but tinged with the regret that I didn’t take every chance or go through every door that was open to me then. I worry that I haven’t done enough, that, despite all the good in my life, I haven’t accomplished everything my 23-year old self had hoped I would. (Unsurprisingly, my favorite album of the year has something to say about that, but more on that below).

I think that’s a normal feeling at this age, especially for parents. There’s a sense of so many doors closing as you rearrange your life and priorities around your new tiny human. There’s less time for all the things I’d like to make and see and do, the things that, a decade ago, formed the basis of who I am and how I see myself. I feel more acutely than ever that I’m rebuilding and reshaping myself every day. I struggle with the balance sometimes, but I know what I want: I want to be the best father and husband and friend that I can be, and I want to stay curious and hungry and creative. I hope that I can.

And on to the lists. I always rank these (except for the one year when I didn’t), but everything on here comes highly recommended by me. Watch something, read something, listen to something.

Stuff I Made This Year

Music

My Year On Last.fm
Though it’s not the case every year, this list mostly lines up with my most played albums of the year. That’s probably how it should be. These were the albums I came back to over and over again, not what I heard once or twice and felt like “should” be on a top ten list. When I read back through my past lists, the “I guess this should be here” picks always stand out as some kind of posturing to be “cool” or “right” when I am rarely either.

If you know me at all, my top two albums probably aren’t a surprise. In Lieu of Flowers is the third album Wonder Years frontman Dan Campbell has made under the Aaron West moniker, and it’s easily the best. I’m not sure there’s a more cathartic moment to be found on this list than the bridge of “Monongahela Park.” I hope it’s not the last we hear from Aaron, but if it is, In Lieu of Flowers leaves the character in a satisfying place.

Maxwell Stern has become one of my favorite songwriters over the past five years, both as a solo artist and in Signals Midwest. His second solo album, In the Good Light, is a lush, engrossing collection of songs about falling in love and making peace with your past. There’s a thread of community and connection that runs through it, and every line about a friend or a loved one conjures up the face of someone in my own life that I should definitely call up and check in on. I could make a case for a few different best tracks, but “You Deserve a Great Love” is particularly noteworthy. It’s a resonant rocker with a bridge that recalls Elvis Costello, and I played it constantly in the second half of the year as a mantra, a hug, a reminder not to be so hard on myself.

  1. Maxwell Stern – In the Good Light
  2. Aaron West and the Roaring Twenties – In Lieu of Flowers
  3. Macseal – Permanent Repeat
  4. Knocked Loose – You Won’t Go Before You’re Supposed To
  5. Origami Angel – Feeling Not Found
  6. Bleachers – Bleachers
  7. Los Campesinos! – All Hell
  8. Waxahatchee – Tigers Blood
  9. The Forecast – Good Journey
  10. Charly Bliss – Forever
  11. Foxing – Foxing
  12. Touche Amore – Spiral In a Straight Line
  13. Friko – Where We’ve Been, Where We Go From Here
  14. State Faults – Children of the Moon
  15. Empty Heaven – Laughing

Honorable Mention/The Only EP I Really Loved This Year: Anika Pyle – Four Corners

Live Shows

My comprehensive spreadsheet of every show I’ve been to.
I played or attended 30 shows this year. When venues opened up again after the Covid shutdowns, I made an effort to focus on seeing bands I hadn’t seen before or might never get a chance to see again. This year I swung back in the opposite direction, and all of my favorite shows were artists I’ve seen many times before. It’s just more fun to scream songs you love than fill out a checklist.

  1. The Get Up Kids – 10/11 at Metro
  2. Aaron West and the Roaring Twenties, Future Teens, Maura Weaver – 6/23 at Bottom Lounge
  3. Spanish Love Songs – 4/18 at Metro
  4. Guster – 8/1 at Red Rocks Amphitheater
  5. The Blood Brothers – 12/20 at Thalia Hall While it feels wrong to put a show I played on this list, Pelafina’s set at Taste of Randolph/PIQNIQ was too much fun to not mention here.

Movies

My year on Letterboxd
As with every year, caveat that I haven’t seen a bunch of big November and December releases yet. I’ll probably update this closer to the Oscars when I’ve hopefully seen all of the major contenders, but this is the list for now. Overall, I think this was a really good movie year, and Dune: Part 2 on opening day with the Hans Zimmer score literally shaking my seat was a top tier moviegoing experience.

  1. Dune: Part 2
  2. Anora
  3. Challengers
  4. Sing Sing
  5. Rebel Ridge
  6. Nosferatu
  7. Furiosa: A Mad Max Saga
  8. The Substance
  9. I Saw the TV Glow
  10. Hit Man

TV

My year on Trakt
I went into this year with the plan of not starting new TV shows. As the streaming model has pushed so much TV into longer episodes and shorter seasons, I think a lot of the magic of TV has faded. Focusing on the shows I’m already excited about seemed like a better use of TV time than adding a whole bunch of new shows just to keep up. Of course, I made a couple exceptions. I did watch the long awaited (though ultimately middling) Netflix adaptation of The Three-Body Problem, the consensus critical favorite Shōgun, and obviously the Star Wars shows. In lieu of keeping up with new TV, I watched all of Twin Peaks — a beautiful and at times frustrating journey — and went way back to the beginning of The Twilight Zone, which continues to surprise and delight as I meander through the classic seasons.

  1. The Bear (Season 3)
  2. Slow Horses (Season 4)
  3. What We Do In the Shadows (Season 6)
  4. Shōgun (Season 1)
  5. Star Wars: Skeleton Crew (Season 1)

Books

My year on Goodreads
I read 35 books this year (including a handful of short stories/novellas that I logged individually). That’s a bit higher than my number on Goodreads, which is missing a few things I counted, like Dan Campbell’s new poetry chapbook and the extensive hardbound liner notes to Adjy’s The Idyll Opus (I-VI). No list of 2024 releases, as usual — it would only have two books on it — but these were my favorite reads of the year.

  1. The Bands of Mourning by Brandon Sanderson
  2. The Hero of Ages by Brandon Sanderson
  3. Lincoln In the Bardo by George Saunders
  4. The Conference of the Birds by Farid Ud-Din Attar
  5. Inciting Joy by Ross Gay

Finally, my favorite lyric of the year, from “In the Good Light” by Maxwell Stern.
God damn, don’t let me do that dance of
“I wonder what I could have been?”
Like I’ll never hit the halcyon heights of joy that I knew back then
A heart filled up with motion, baby
I am leaning in to a brilliant beacon in the distance
Praying: “If there’s a moment, don’t you miss it. Amen.”

Let the Noise of the Feedback Start To Rise: 2023 In Review

Introduction

“Some days there’s just so much to marvel at, and some days you’re at the bottom of a pit.”

This was a year that fit that Spanish Love Songs lyric a little too well, a year where I felt the highs and the lows more acutely than ever. There were the panic attacks and the days I felt like I couldn’t get out of bed, the satisfaction of finally releasing a new album and the thrill of playing it live to a packed Gman Tavern, the whirlwind of Elliot’s birth and figuring out the basics of being a parent, the utter exhaustion of those first few months, and the unquantifiable joy of his first smiles.

It’s been a lot, but I am so lucky and I don’t want to lose sight of that.

Stuff I Made This Year

Music

My year on Last.fm. It’s been really cool to follow Spanish Love Songs over the past six years as they’ve shed the trappings of pop punk a little bit more on each album. This is the third time they’ve topped my year end list, and I think No Joy is their best work yet.

As usual, the ranking of the rest of the list is just what I’m feeling today. I recommend all of these, from the relative newcomers (Awakebutstillinbed, OrigamI Angel) to reunited old favorites. For a long time, I didn’t think we’d ever get new music from The Gaslight Anthem, Fall Out Boy, or Yellowcard, three bands that fundamentally shaped my tastes as a teenager. All three are back, seemingly more excited than ever.

On the EP side, John K. Samson released new music under name Vivat Virtute, so no one else really had a chance at my number one spot there. Even if there’s never a Weakerthans reunion, I hope he continues making these perfect little snapshots of local politics and cats forever.

I also made a Spotify playlist with my favorite songs from each of these releases, plus a handful of other singles.

Albums

  1. Spanish Love Songs – No Joy
  2. The Gaslight Anthem – History Books
  3. The Menzingers – Some of It Was True
  4. Olivia Rodrigo – Guts
  5. Fall Out Boy – So Much (For) Stardust
  6. Jason Isbell and the 400 Unit – Weathervanes
  7. Awakebutstillinbed – Chaos Takes the Wheel and I Am a Passenger
  8. The National – First Two Pages of Frankenstein
  9. Hot Mulligan – Why Would I Watch
  10. Foo Fighters – But Here We Are
  11. Blink-182 – One More Time…
  12. Fireworks – Higher Lonely Power
  13. Ruston Kelly – The Weakness
  14. The Mountain Goats – Jenny From Thebes
  15. Origami Angel – The Brightest Days
  16. Dave Hause – Drive It Like It’s Stolen
  17. Citizen – Calling the Dogs
  18. Paramore – This Is Why
  19. There Will Be Fireworks – Summer Moon
  20. The Maine – The Maine

EPs

  1. Vivat Virtute – June First
  2. Yellowcard – Childhood Eyes
  3. Adjy – June Songs, Vol 1
  4. Boygenius – The Rest
  5. The Flips – A Drug To the Dour

Live Shows

I played or attended 26 shows this year. My days of getting to 80 or more are probably behind me, but I can live with that if the shows I do see are as special as these. Liesi and I saw The Wonder Years together in March and got to hear most of our favorite songs from The Hum Goes On Forever, a record largely about becoming a parent that has, unsurprisingly, meant a lot to us this year. Then I saw them again in October playing all of The Greatest Generation. I lost my voice screaming along to “I Just Want To Sell Out My Funeral” with old friends and new.

  1. The Wonder Years – 10/8 at Riviera
  2. Bleachers – 12/7 at Aragon Ballroom
  3. Bruce Springsteen and the E Street Band – 8/9 at Wrigley Field
  4. The Wonder Years – 3/16 at Concord Music Hall
  5. City Mouth – 11/22 at Beat Kitchen

Movies

My year on Letterboxd. I’ve seen 42 movies from this year. I didn’t get to the theater much, especially after Elliot was born, so I missed out on the full Barbenheimer experience. There’s a lot I still want to see, but I think this was a really solid year for movies.

  1. Killers of the Flower Moon
  2. Spider-Man: Across the Spider-Verse
  3. Past Lives
  4. Oppenheimer
  5. Barbie
  6. May December
  7. The Killer
  8. Infinity Pool
  9. Asteroid City
  10. Beau Is Afraid

TV

My year on Trakt. This was feeling like a bit of a slow TV year until November, when there was a deluge of new shows and new seasons. Some of these are still ongoing as of this writing, but I’ve seen enough to feel like I can rank them, and certainly enough to recommend them. Same caveat as with movies: There’s a bunch of stuff I haven’t seen yet (namely the Doctor Who specials) that could easily make this list if I re-do it in a few months.

  1. The Bear (Season 2)
  2. The Last of Us (Season 1)
  3. Poker Face (Season 1)
  4. Slow Horses (Season 3)
  5. Succession (Season 4)
  6. For All Mankind (Season 4)
  7. Fargo (Season 5)
  8. Mrs. Davis (Season 1)
  9. Ted Lasso (Season 3)
  10. Barry (Season 4)

Books

My year on Goodreads. I read 27 books this year (only one actually released in 2023), and these were my favorites. Pale Fire was a recommendation from a friend, and aside from being a masterwork of language, it was neat to read as an influence on House of Leaves (and to find all the lyrics The Menzingers have lifted from it).

  1. Pale Fire by Vladimir Nabokov
  2. The Passenger / Stella Maris by Cormac McCarthy
  3. The Chosen by Chaim Potok
  4. The Nickel Boys by Colson Whitehead
  5. The Blind Assassin by Margaret Atwood

A Blind Contour Drawing of the Future: 2022 In Review

What does it mean to grow when the world around you is falling apart? I think that’s the central question of Dent, the fifth album from Signals Midwest and my most-played album of the year by a wide margin. It’s a question I’ve asked myself a lot over the past couple years, years that have been largely soundtracked by the last two Signals Midwest releases (Dent and their 2019 EP Pin) and vocalist Maxwell Stern’s 2020 masterpiece, Impossible Sum. To me, at least, Dent is an album about processing all the distance and unrest and darkness of the pandemic years and starting come out on the other side with a sense of clear-eyed optimism.

This year didn’t start with a lot of optimism. The first few months were spent in the throes of the biggest Covid wave yet, and capped by getting Covid myself in March and missing a tour I had planned to go on and yet another chance to see Converge. Thankfully, things were mostly up from there. Liesi and I went on a couple of wonderful vacations, to New York and Europe. I played shows with Pelafina, The Long Way Home, Better Love, and Thomas Nicholas, and I went to tons more. I caught another Yankees game (although not in New York).

For me, the most striking moments of Dent are when joy bursts through the darkness. Sometimes that’s right in the lyrics, on “Gold In the Grey” or in the bridge of “It Left a Dent” (my favorite track on the album):

So if there is a light, turn towards it
I want to get a better look at you
I’ve been digging through a dead year’s worth of darkness just to find it
Finding all the good inside it

And sometimes it’s in the harmonized guitar leads in “Tommy Took a Picture” or the layered backing vocals of “All Good Things.” And sometimes it’s just in the memory of screaming the ending of “Love and Commerce” at Subterranean over the summer.

The pandemic is still going, there were political setbacks that I don’t need to recount, and I spent far too much time thinking about a dumb billionaire, but this was a year of trying to find those moments of joy in my own life, even though I know they always exist against background of world that isn’t doing great. That’s the essence of Dent for me. I’m so glad it was the soundtrack to this year.

Looking forward to 2023, there’s a new Long Way Home album coming (I promise for real this time, he says for the third year running). I spent most of my creative time and effort this year recording and mixing it, and I’m really happy with how it turned out.

And, of course, some very exciting personal news.

Stuff I Made This Year

Music – Albums

I got back into using Last.fm this year. Unfortunately I couldn’t get all my old data back, but here are my stats from 2022. I’m less attached to the ranking of this list than I have been in the past. After the top four, the rest of these could be in pretty much any order, and I think they’re all really great.

  1. Signals Midwest – Dent
  2. The Wonder Years – The Hum Goes On Forever
  3. Gang of Youths – Angel In Realtime
  4. Arm’s Length – Never Before Seen, Never Again Found
  5. The 1975 – Being Funny In a Foreign Language
  6. Death Cab For Cutie – Asphalt Meadows
  7. Coheed and Cambria – Vaxis II: A Window of the Waking Mind
  8. The Tisburys – Exile On Main Street
  9. Timeshares – Limb
  10. Spoon – Lucifer On the Sofa
  11. Pool Kids – Pool Kids
  12. Caracara – New Preoccupations
  13. Gregor Barnett – Don’t Go Throwing Roses In My Grave
  14. Mt. Oriander – Then the Lightness Leaves and I Become Heavy Again
  15. Dan Andriano and the Bygones – Dear Darkness
  16. The Mountain Goats – Bleed Out
  17. Pale Waves – Unwanted
  18. LS Dunes – Past Lives
  19. Future Teens – Self Help
  20. Craig Finn – A Legacy of Rentals

Music – EPs

  1. Rise Against – Nowhere Generation II
  2. Bright Eyes – Companion EPs
  3. Better Love – I Wasn’t Ready Then, But I Think I Am Now
  4. Bottom Bracket – A Figure In Armor
  5. Tigers Jaw – Old Clothes

Live Shows

I went to or played 41 shows this year. These were my favorites, sometimes for the setlist or the sound, sometimes for the people I went with, but always for the joy I still find in a room or a field full of music.

  1. The Wonder Years – 3/5 at Concord Music Hall (The Upsides / Suburbia Tour)
  2. Signals Midwest – 7/21 at Subterranean
  3. The 1975 – 12/9 at Aragon Ballroom
  4. My Chemical Romance / Bleachers / The Wonder Years – 9/16 at Riot Fest
  5. The Get Up Kids – 9/17 at Riot Fest

Movies

According to my Letterboxd, I watched 61 movies released this year, and there are still a handful I want to see, so I might stealthily edit this part over the next couple weeks.

  1. The Fabelmans
  2. Everything Everywhere All At Once
  3. Glass Onion
  4. Nope
  5. The Banshees of Inisherin
  6. Top Gun: Maverick
  7. Avatar: The Way of Water
  8. The Menu
  9. Barbarian
  10. Prey

TV

My Trakt Year In Review. This was such a good TV year that, maybe for the first time, this top ten list was the hardest one to make.

  1. Station Eleven
  2. The Bear (Season 1)
  3. We Own This City
  4. Andor (Season 1)
  5. Severance (Season 1)
  6. Atlanta (Seasons 3 and 4)
  7. For All Mankind (Season 3)
  8. Slow Horses (Seasons 1 and 2)
  9. Better Call Saul (Season 6)
  10. House of the Dragon (Season 1)

Books

I read 35 books this year, and these were my favorites. As usual, I only read a couple 2022 releases, so this includes anything I read for the first time in the past year.

  1. Harlem Shuffle by Colson Whitehead
  2. Devil House by John Darnielle
  3. All Quiet On the Western Front by Erich Maria Remarque
  4. Sellout by Dan Ozzi
  5. The Sparrow by Mary Doria Russell

That’s all for now. See you next year.

“Make me a blind contour drawing of the future, capturing the form in all its grace, flaws, ritual, and promise.”

The Getting By That Gets Right Underneath You: 2021 In Review

Introduction

This year may as well have started on March 30th when I drove to Pontiac to get my first vaccine dose. Everything before that (and, to be honest, a lot after that) just feels like endless extra innings of 2020. The year also kind of feels like it ended after Thanksgiving with the spread of the Omicron variant and another round of uncertainty, caution, and fear. I’m trying hard to push back against the tidal wave of “everything is terrible” and focus on the best moments. I felt utterly alive and in the moment on stage at Nightshop in July when Pelafina played our first show back. I went to Riot Fest in September and hugged friends I hadn’t seen in two years. I turned 30 in October. I was able to celebrate the holidays with families that are happy and healthy.

Music I Worked On This Year

It’s been tough getting back into the rhythm of writing, recording, and releasing new music, so this section is pretty short this time. Lots more in the works for 2022 though, including a new Pelafina single very early in the year.

My Favorite Albums of 2021

I had a harder time than usual making this list. There was no runaway favorite album, no artist that completely dominated my listening (besides maybe Taylor Swift, but I’m deeming Red (Taylor’s Version) ineligible for this list), but what I ended up with actually feels like a good summary of my listening habits this year.

I did less digging and discovering than usual. There are only a few debut albums on this list, and one of them was of course the most ubiquitous and inescapable release of the year. I was delighted to see some left turns and exciting, vibrant work from established band eight or nine albums deep in their careers.

I also put together a Spotify playlist with my favorite songs from each of these releases, as well as a bunch of singles and tracks from other albums that didn’t quite make a the cut.

  1. The Killers – Pressure Machine
  2. Olivia Rodrigo – Sour
  3. You, Me, and Everyone We Know – Something Heavy
  4. Adjy – The Idyll Opus (I-VI)
  5. The World Is a Beautiful Place and I Am No Longer Afraid To Die – Illusory Walls
  6. Noah Gundersen – A Pillar of Salt
  7. Telethon – Swim Out Past the Breakers
  8. Dan Campbell – Other People’s Lives
  9. Every Time I Die – Radical
  10. Bleachers – Take the Sadness Out of Saturday Night
  11. Dave Hause – Blood Harmony
  12. Julien Baker – Little Oblivions
  13. Japanese Breakfast – Jubilee
  14. Origami Angel – Gami Gang
  15. The Wallflowers – Exit Wounds
  16. The Hold Steady – Open Door Policy
  17. Porter Robinson – Nurture
  18. Monobody – Comma
  19. The Dirty Nil – Fuck Art
  20. Parting – Unmake Me

A few EPs I loved:

  • Future Teens – Deliberately Alive
  • Counting Crows – Butter Miracle: Suite One
  • Camp Trash – Downtiming
  • Brett Conlin and the Midnight Miles – Brett Conlin and the Midnight Miles

My Favorite Live Shows of 2021

I played or went to 31 shows this year, and nearly every one felt like a celebration of live music, of how lucky we are be able to share art and community again after the past two years. It may have been a short-lived celebration, with case numbers rising again and tours for next year already getting canceled, but I’m hoping for the best.

  1. Titus Andronicus – 11/12 at Subterranean
  2. Spanish Love Songs – 9/3 at Beat Kitchen
  3. The Mountain Goats – 8/24 at Space
  4. The Killers – 12/7 at Aragon Ballroom
  5. Signals Midwest – 12/17 at Burlington

My Favorite Movies of 2021

All the usual caveats about not yet having the chance to see all of the new releases aside, I don’t see anything topping Dune as my favorite movie of the year. It’s a true accomplishment of science fiction filmmaking.

  1. Dune
  2. Inside
  3. The Last Duel
  4. The Power of the Dog
  5. King Richard
  6. Judas and the Black Messiah
  7. No Time To Die
  8. No Sudden Move
  9. Summer of Soul
  10. Luca

My Favorite TV Shows of 2021

It sure feels like I watched less TV this year than I have in the decade and change since I discovered Dexter (and binge-watching) during finals week of my freshman year of college. Maybe it was a slight shift in entertainment priorities. Maybe it was due to most of my reliable favorites taking the year off. Regardless, what I did watch was really great.

  1. Midnight Mass
  2. Succession (Season 3)
  3. Squid Game (Season 1)
  4. What We Do In the Shadows (Season 3)
  5. Loki (Season 1)

Honorable Mention (only because the entire season hasn’t aired yet): Station Eleven

My Favorite Books of 2021

I hardly ever end up with new releases among my favorite books list at the end of a year. My book backlog is so long that only new releases from my favorite authors jump to the top. However, I set a goal in 2021 to read more non-fiction and ended up reading more new books than usual as a result. These were my favorite reads of the year, in no particular order and not limited to new releases.

  • Punks In Peoria: Making a Scene In the American Heartland by Jonathan Wright and Dawson Barrett
  • Crying In H Mart by Michelle Zauner
  • The Rest Is Noise by Alex Ross
  • Killers of the Flower Moon: Listening To the Twentieth Century by David Grann
  • Lolita by Vladimir Nabokov
  • Caste: The Origins of Our Discontents by Isabel Wilkerson

Next Year

  • A new Long Way Home album (I swear it’s actually happening this time)
  • A new Pelafina song in January and hopefully another release later in the year

Add It All Up To An Impossible Sum: 2020 In Review

Introduction

There’s a Wonder Years lyric that keeps popping up in my running playlist at slightly too fitting moments: "I’ve been acting like I’m strong, but the truth is I’ve been losing ground to a hospital too crowded, to a summer winding down." Those lines aren’t about this pandemic, although they are about grief and loss, feelings that most of us have probably grown all too familiar with over the past nine months, even those of us who haven’t lost family members. I’ve spent more of this year sad and angry than I’ve let on to friends and family. I’ve been lamenting the things I love that may never go back to the way they were before – it’s hard to yell punk rock songs in tiny venues when those venues close for good because they got no support from the government during a crisis. I’ve been furious at Republican leaders in government, from Trump on down to state and local officials, for ignoring and then flouting the advice of scientists, turning public health into a partisan issue during a time of extraordinary polarization while this pandemic disproportionately affects people who were already marginalized. I’m furious at every single person who put "personal freedom" or whatever bullshit reason they have for not wearing a mask above the health of everyone else. We could have beaten this, and instead we had a year of needless suffering on an unprecedented scale.

This is a down way to start my annual year-in-review, but it’s been a down year.

Even in such a bad year, I know I’ve been extremely privileged. My family has stayed healthy. I have a job that has allowed me to work from home full-time and support Liesi through some big career changes. I’m alright. I’m adapting. I’m trying hard not to beat myself up about not writing a record or a novel or something.

Despite [gestures broadly] all of this, I still couldn’t end the year without making a bunch of lists. I am a creature of habit.

Music I Worked On This Year

I did actually release some music I’m really proud of this year, although most of this feels like it happened a decade ago.

  • Pelafina – Familiar Places – Guitar, keyboard
  • Pelafina – TS – Guitar, keyboard, recording, mixing, mastering
  • Jeff Schaller and the Long Way Home – "Pulse of Summer" – Guitar, recording, mixing, mastering
  • Jeff Schaller and the Long Way Home – Two Decades and Change (Deluxe Edition) – Guitar, recording (tracks 11-16, 20), mixing and mastering (tracks 11-15, 20)
  • Bosley Jr. – Appreciation Post – Recording, mixing
  • Dead Are the Gods – Dead Are the Gods – Recording, mixing, mastering
  • Apocalypse Quest – CPAC Now – Recording, mixing, mastering
  • Watch No Evil Podcast – "Theme Song" – Bass, percussion, keyboard, recording, mixing, mastering

My Favorite Albums of 2020

First, Some Honorable Mentions
  • Fiona Apple – Fetch the Bolt Cutters
  • Beach Bunny – Honeymoon
  • Bright Eyes Down In the Weeds Where the World Once Was
  • The Chicks – Gaslighter
  • Cinema Stare – Hum and the Glow
  • City Mouth – Coping Machine
  • Bob Dylan – Rough and Rowdy Ways
  • Jason Isbell and the 400 Unit Reunions
  • Ruston Kelly – Shape and Destroy
  • The Killers – Imploding the Mirage
  • Jeff Parker – Suite For Max Brown
  • Frances Quinlan – Likewise
  • Jeff Rosenstock – No Dream
  • Bartees Strange – Live Forever
  • Touché Amore – Lament
The Top Ten
  1. Phoebe Bridgers – Punisher
    I fell in love with this album in a restaurant parking lot at sunset while waiting for a curbside pickup order. That’s 2020, I guess.
  2. Dogleg – Melee
    High on the list of things to do once a sufficient amount of the country is vaccinated and bands can safely tour again: Scream along to “Prom Hell” and “Kawasaki Backflip” in the smallest, most crowded room possible.
  3. Caspian – On Circles
    This is everything I want a post-rock album to be. Not much else to say here. Best if played very loud.
  4. The Mountain Goats – Songs For Pierre Chuvin
    One of the early pandemic projects, listening to Songs For Pierre Chuvin now takes me back to the strange time in early spring when this all felt temporary. There’s a wonderful feeling of no rules and no pressure here: We’re stuck at home for a few weeks, so why not make a lo-fi album about pagans in the late classical period?
  5. Taylor Swift – Folklore / Evermore
    It’s a bit of a cheat to combine two albums on this list, but this is my place and I make the rules. Taylor Swift and Aaron Dessner tapped into some really impressive creative energy even when they were working remotely, and the surprise announcements and release days for these albums were a source of genuine joy in a year when such joys have been tough to come by.
  6. Bruce Springsteen – Letter To You
    The E Street Band sounds gloriously live and alive as Springsteen mines his early bar band days for both inspiration (“Ghosts” and “Last Man Standing”) and actual songs (“If I Was the Priest,” finally recorded and released after nearly fifty years, is a highlight). I’ll always be a sucker for a lyric about turning a Fender Twin all the way up and burning the house down.
  7. Waxahatchee – Saint Cloud
    Until Saint Cloud, I hadn’t loved any of Katie Crutchfield’s work since 2012’s American Weekend. This album is gem after gem, and I’m thrilled to no longer be an “old stuff is better” guy about Waxahatchee.
  8. Nana Grizol – South Somewhere Else
    I love incisive, insightful lyrics and I love emo trumpet. There’s a lot of both on South Somewhere Else. The title track, which reflects on how growing up white and liberal in a college town begets a sense of distance from racist, oppressive systems. In a year that has found me considering my own privilege more than ever, this song was always in the back of my mind.
  9. Maxwell Stern – Impossible Sum
    The new solo album from Signals Midwest vocalist Maxwell Stern came along in September, and I played it more than anything else as the weather cooled off. Somewhere between The Weakerthans, Limbeck, and later-era Promise Ring (seriously, listen to that uncanny Davey Von Bohlen impression on “Born At the End of a Year”), Impossible Sum feels like a warm hoodie in the crisp autumn air.
  10. Spanish Love Songs – Brave Faces Everyone
    A lot of year end features will probably mention how remarkable it is that Spanish Love Songs’ Brave Faces Everyone was recorded and released in the Before Times, pre-pandemic. “I woke up and didn’t feel better, don’t know why I act surprised,” vocalist Dylan Slocum sings on one song, and another features a call and response chorus of “It won’t be this bleak forever. Yeah, right,” a sentiment I’ve wrestled with a lot recently. But the resonance of these songs didn’t depend on a large-scale national tragedy. This is an album about the systems that keep people struggling and keep people down, systems that have been in place for years and will continue to be in place far into the future unless we work diligently to change them and look out for each other in the meantime. It’s a record about fighting those systems with empathy. The kind of radical empathy that Brave Faces Everyone imagines was necessary in February and is even more necessary now. I just wish I could have had the experience of yelling these lines in a room full of friends and strangers. The tour date I was supposed to see was canceled a day before it was scheduled. It will be all the more cathartic when we can yell together again. I can’t think of a better way to end this than to quote the lines that I’ve come back to more than any other this year: “We don’t have to fix everything at once. We were never broken. Life’s just very long. Brave faces, everyone.”

My Favorite EPs of 2020

  1. The Wonder Years – Burst and Decay (Volume II)
  2. Lemondrop – Shut Up Move On
  3. The Dangerous Summer – All That Is Left of the Blue Sky
  4. Soul Glo – Songs To Yeet At the Sun
  5. Alex Lahey – Between the Kitchen and the Living Room

My Favorite Songs of 2020

Here’s a Spotify playlist of a bunch of songs I loved this year, in no particular order. No Apple Music playlist this year because of a weird bug that prevents from adding certain songs to public playlists, but feel free to make your own.

My Favorite Live Shows of 2020

For obvious reasons, I spent very little time in music venues this year. I did manage to attend or play sixteen shows in the Before Times, as well as one drive-in show in October. These were my favorites.

  1. Origami Angel – 1/16 at Beat Kitchen
  2. Limbeck – 2/29 at HVAC Pub
  3. Telethon – 2/6 at Gman Tavern
  4. Andrew McMahon In the Wilderness – 10/3 at Boomers Stadium (drive-in show)
  5. Lemondrop – 2/15 at Loudhouse

My Favorite Movies of 2020

This part of the list always feels incomplete because so many movies aren’t easily available to watch within the calendar year. At this point in 2019, I still hadn’t seen Parasite, Little Women, or 1917, all of which I loved. That’s even more apparent this year, with so much getting delayed because of the pandemic. Regardless, here are the best movies I’ve seen so far this year.

  1. Sound of Metal
  2. I’m Thinking of Ending Things
  3. Palm Springs
  4. The Vast of Night
  5. Host
  6. American Utopia
  7. Time
  8. First Cow
  9. Da 5 Bloods
  10. Dick Johnson Is Dead
  11. Possessor
  12. Mank
  13. The Trial of the Chicago 7
  14. Tenet
  15. Never Rarely Sometimes Always

My Favorite TV Shows of 2020

I watched a ton of TV this year (because what else was there to do), and nothing stood out like The Queen’s Gambit. It’s immaculately written, acted, and directed, propulsive and gripping at every moment no matter your opinion of chess as a sport.

  1. The Queen’s Gambit
  2. Mrs. America
  3. Small Axe
  4. Better Call Saul (Season 5)
  5. What We Do In the Shadows (Season 2)
  6. Devs
  7. I’ll Be Gone In the Dark
  8. Search Party (Season 3)
  9. The Mandalorian (Season 2)
  10. Lovecraft Country (Season 1)

My Favorite Books of 2020

I read 40 books this year, which is high for recent years, but again, I had a lot more time on my hands. As usual, only a couple were new releases, and both are highly recommended: Solutions and Other Problems by Allie Brosh, the successor to her Hyperbole and a Half blog, and Alex Trebek’s wonderful autobiography, The Answer Is… which I finished shortly before he passed away. Here are the rest of my favorite reads this year, in no particular order.

  • Interpreter of Maladies by Jhumpa Lahiri
  • The Shining Girls by Lauren Beukes
  • The Underground Railroad by Colson Whitehead
  • The Goldfinch by Donna Tartt
  • Universal Harvester by John Darnielle

Update 12/23: Over the past couple days, I read Charles Yu’s new novel, Interior Chinatown, and I’m immediately ready to say it’s best thing I’ve read this year. Using a screenplay format to display one’s life as a series of roles and performances, Yu examines the Asian American experience across the twentieth century. I want to take this back in time (a la Yu’s debut novel) and discuss it in my avant garde fiction class.

Next Year

It’s still pretty hard to know how excited to be about next year, even with a vaccine on the way. Plans still feel tenuous, but I have tickets to shows. I have demos for a Pelafina album. I have a Long Way Home record in progress. We still have a long, tough few months ahead of us, but I think we can do it.

We’ll Grow Stronger Making Room and Sharing Space: 2019 In Review

It’s the end of the year and the end of the decade (more on the latter in this post). It’s the time for me to reflect on the year and think too much about lists. Some things will never change.

Music I Worked On This Year

My Favorite Albums of 2019

I’ve had a one-sentence review of my number one album, Breakup Season by Future Teens, in my head for a few months: If I had heard this when I was seventeen, I might have been a better person. That sounds hyperbolic, but I haven’t been able to shake the idea. I know I could have used this album as a teenager. It’s so honest and introspective about heartbreak and sadness and dealing with those emotions in healthy ways. I’m so happy that a band like Future Teens exists. I’m jealous of the kid that hears Breakup Season this year and connects to it like I connected to The Upsides. Future Teens will be that kid’s first favorite band, the soundtrack to their formative years, their inspirations and role models. I keep likening this album to The Upsides, probably the single most influential album on my past ten years. It feels like a torch-passing at the end of the decade, and it’s all the more apt because I saw Future Teens open for the Wonder Years in October.

The rest of my list feels as varied as my year, spanning genre and scope from emo debuts to the biggest pop artist in the world. As always, I think there’s a lot to love on this list, so pick something and give it a spin.

  1. Future Teens – Breakup Season
  2. Charly Bliss – Young Enough
  3. Pedro the Lion – Phoenix
  4. The Menzingers – Hello Exile
  5. The Mountain Goats – In League With Dragons
  6. Jimmy Eat World – Surviving
  7. Taylor Swift – Lover
  8. Origami Angel – Somewhere City
  9. The Get Up Kids – Problems
  10. Telethon – Hard Pop
  11. Proper. – I Spent the Winter Writing Songs About Getting Better
  12. Aaron West and the Roaring Twenties – Routine Maintenance
  13. Ceres – We Are a Team
  14. Oso Oso – Basking In the Glow
  15. Better Oblivion Community Center – Better Oblivion Community Center
  16. The Dangerous Summer – Mother Nature
  17. Somos – Prison On a Hill
  18. Dave Hause – Kick
  19. American Football – LP3
  20. Bruce Springsteen – Western Stars
  21. Junius Paul – Ism
  22. The Maine – You Are OK
  23. Nervus – Tough Crowd
  24. Great Grandpa – Four of Arrows
  25. Vampire Weekend – Father of the Bride

My Favorite EPs of 2019

  1. Better Love – All I Ever Wanted Is To Be Where You Are
  2. Mineral – One Day When We Are Young
  3. Ruston Kelly – Dirt Emo, Volume 1
  4. Rat Tally – When You Wake Up
  5. Bosley Jr – No More

My Favorite Songs of 2019

Here’s a playlist on Apple Music and Spotify of songs I loved this year. It’s vaguely in order (at least the top ten or so).

My Favorite Shows of 2019

I went to 63 shows this year, 35 of which I played. Here were my favorites. These were all great, but the John K. Samson show is a contender for my all-time favorite performance. He doesn’t tour much, so make it a priority to see him if you have the chance.

  1. John K. Samson and Christine Fellows – 11/23 at Beat Kitchen
  2. The Wonder Years, Future Teens – 10/20 at Metro
  3. Ruston Kelly – 11/1 at Thalia Hall
  4. Mineral – 1/24 at Lincoln Hall
  5. Pedro the Lion – 5/18 at The Castle Theater
  6. Jacob Sigman, Jetty Bones – 3/29 at Beat Kitchen
  7. The Sidekicks, Adult Mom – 7/7 at Subterranean
  8. Spanish Love Songs – 5/19 at Cobra Lounge
  9. Los Campesinos! – 7/6 at West Fest
  10. We Were Promised Jetpacks – 7/13 at Bottom Lounge

My Favorite Podcasts of 2019

Two Headed Girl is the best new podcast I listened to this year. It’s a chronicle of gender dysphoria, transitioning, and marriage. Hosts Alex and Matthew Cox are unflinching in their honesty with each other about their lives, health, and feelings. It’s kind of amazing that they recorded all of this and are willing to share such a personal journey with the world.

Elsewhere in the podcast world, two of my favorite long-running podcasts hit new highs in 2019. On episode 102 of Reconcilable Differences, “Preparing the Way,” John Siracusa buys a refrigerator. The two-hour chronicle of this harrowing adventure is everything I love about the podcast format. And The Watch, Chris Ryan and Andy Greenwald’s twice weekly talk about movies and TV, transitioned from purely critique to a behind the scenes look at making a TV show as Andy called in from the set and editing room of his upcoming show, Briarpatch.

Finally, I’ll recommend Michael Lewis’s Against the Rules, a meticulously researched exploration of societal rules and the people who make and enforce them. Unlike the long-running conversational shows I typically like, the tight format and high production value make Against the Rules feel more like an audio book.

My Favorite Books of 2019

As usual, I read very few new releases this year, but the few I did read were fantastic: Hanif Abdurraqib’s latest poetry collection, A Fortune For Your Disaster, Mark Z. Danielewski’s children’s book for all ages, The Little Blue Kite, and Mischa Pearlman’s One Day When We Are Young, a retrospective on the emo band Mineral and a companion piece to their first new music in over twenty years.

The best book I read this year, regardless of release date, was The Poisonwood Bible by Barbara Kingsolver.

My Favorite Television of 2019

I started 2019 with the vague goal of “keeping up” with TV, but I quickly realized that’s impossible. There’s just too much great TV. With that in mind, I just want to highlight a few of my favorite shows of the year, all remarkable for very different reasons, which also happen to be short and digestible.

Fleabag – Season 2

A tour de force of emotion and energy, every episode left me thinking that writer / producer / star Phoebe Waller-Bridge might be the most talented person alive.

Watchmen

Every frame of this show is immaculate. I’m a longtime defender of the endings of Lost and The Leftovers so I had confidence in Damon Lindelof and his team to pull this sequel/remix, and my expectations were still far exceeded.

When They See Us

Ava Duvernay’s docu-drama about the Central Park Five is a heart-wrenching examination of injustice. The opening sequence alone is worth the price of a Netflix subscription.

Chernobyl

A different kind of bleak docu-drama, set on the opposite side of the world as When They See Us, Chernobyl is equal parts moving, gruesome, frustrating, and deeply sad.

And I can’t leave the TV section without giving a shout to Baby Yoda on The Mandalorian, constant cause of delighted squeals (both Liesi’s and mine) every time he’s on screen.

My Favorite Movies of 2019

As always, I’m very behind on movies at the end of year, but Knives Out is a masterpiece.

  1. Knives Out
  2. Marriage Story
  3. The Irishman
  4. Booksmart
  5. Midsommar
  6. The Report
  7. Toy Story 4
  8. Us
  9. Dolemite Is My Name
  10. High Life

Next Year

I haven’t made a formal new year’s resolution in quite a few years, but I do have some plans for 2020.

  • Pelafina will be releasing a new EP in the next couple months. More on that very soon.

  • The Long Way Home are deep in the process of recording our next album. That will hopefully be out later in the spring.

  • I didn’t make a single blog post this year, and I want to change that. I don’t have a clear structure in mind, but I just want to write more.

  • I’m going to listen to more jazz.

Like a Rock Stuck Skipping On a Great Lake: 2018 In Review

I never know how to sum up a year in a paragraph. I don’t think it’s really possible, when a year is so big and somehow goes by so fast, to capture everything that was significant in my little corner of the world. But I’ll always try.

Before the traditional lists, I want to highlight one very important moment from 2018. Liesi and I got married and it was the happiest day of my life. To every friend and family member who helped out in any way, thanks for making it so special. I appreciate it more than I can ever say.

And it turns out I’ll actually dance if I’m making the playlist.

Music I Worked On This Year

My Favorite Albums of 2018

  1. Spanish Love Songs – Schmaltz
  2. The Sidekicks – Happiness Hours
  3. The Wonder Years – Sister Cities
  4. Brian Fallon – Sleepwalkers
  5. Ruston Kelly – Dying Star
  6. Mitski – Be the Cowboy
  7. Death Cab For Cutie – Thank You For Today
  8. Andrew McMahon In the Wilderness – Upside Down Flowers
  9. The 1975 – A Brief Inquiry Into Online Relationships
  10. Lucy Dacus – Historian
  11. Joyce Manor – Million Dollars To Kill Me
  12. Fall Out Boy – Mania
  13. mewithoutYou – [Untitled]
  14. Foxing – Nearer My God
  15. Camp Cope – How To Socialize and Make Friends
  16. Hop Along – Bark Your Head Off, Dog
  17. Jeff Rosenstock – Post
  18. Retirement Party – Somewhat Literate
  19. All Get Out – No Bouquet
  20. Coheed and Cambria – Vaxis – Act I: The Unheavenly Creatures

My Favorite EPs of 2018

  1. Better Love – We Were Younger and Less Put Together
  2. Clear Eyes Fanzine – Season One, Episodes 1-6
  3. The Flips – Exactly Where I Should Be
  4. Boygenius – Boygenius
  5. mewithoutYou – [untitled]

My Favorite Songs of 2018

Playlist on Apple Music and Spotify

The playlist only includes 49 of my 50 favorite songs because “Coming Up For Air” by Clear Eyes Fanzine isn’t on streaming services, but it is on Bandcamp.

My Favorite Shows of 2018

  1. The Bad Plus – Nightshop – 12/6
  2. All Get Out – The House Cafe – 5/17
  3. Spanish Love Songs – Subterranean (Downstairs) – 4/14
  4. Counting Crows – Hollywood Casino Amphitheater – 9/8
  5. Lorde – Rosemont Arena – 3/27
  6. The Wonder Years – Sister Cities Pop Up Shop – 3/30

My Favorite Movies of 2018

  1. Annihilation
  2. Hereditary
  3. Minding the Gap
  4. Roma
  5. A Quiet Place
  6. Game Night
  7. Black Panther
  8. The Incredibles 2
  9. Solo: A Star Wars Story
  10. The Ballad of Buster Scruggs

My Favorite TV Shows of 2018

  1. Killing Eve
  2. The Marvelous Mrs. Maisel
  3. GLOW
  4. Atlanta
  5. The Little Drummer Girl
  6. Castle Rock
  7. The Good Place
  8. The Haunting of Hill House
  9. Counterpart
  10. Patriot

Other Highlights

The best book I read this year was They Can’t Kill Us Until They Kill Us by Hanif Abdurraqib.

I spent a stupid amount of time playing The Binding of Isaac on Nintendo Switch.

My favorite podcast episode of the year is a tie between Roderick On the Line, Ep. 315: “The Slow Desctruction of Bueno” and Do By Friday, Ep. 109: “Bee. Wasp. Hornet.”

As always, thanks for reading. See you next year.

Souvenirs of Happiness In the Moment: Reflections On 2017

Some milestones and accomplishments from this year:

Movies About Animals released our first full-length album, Two Decades and Change, in January. I tend to be pretty critical of my own work even after it’s finished, but I wouldn’t change anything about this album. I’ve only grown more proud of it in the last eleven months. We also released a companion EP called Spare Change, with some B-sides and acoustic songs as a bit of a cap on the Two Decades era.

Pelafina had a very busy year. We played 29 shows, including two out-of-state weekends, and released a split with The Flips, a re-recorded and re-mixed version of Pelafina 64, and a single called “Skin.” These songs are particularly special because in addition to writing, I also recorded and mixed all of them myself. The rest of band has been more supportive and encouraging than I could have hoped for while I use our songs to learn the ropes of music production and engineering.

City Mouth played a handful of shows in 2017, but much of the year was spent writing and recording a new EP called Hollows, which will be out early next year. It will be my last release as a member of the band, which still feels strange to say after four years writing and touring with Matt and the rest of the gang, but I’m so excited to see where the new lineup goes (I’ve heard some demos and of course they’re great).

On a more general note, 2017 marked a decade of playing live music. Years To Come played our first official show in September of 2007 at the Coffeehouse in Normal, following a test run in my parents’ basement over the summer, and I’ve played over 300 shows with at least a dozen groups since. If you’ve been there from the beginning, or if you saw me play for the first time this month, thank you.

Outside of music, there were two big personal events I wanted to mention in this year-end wrap up.

On a chilly February night at the Logan Square monument, I asked Liesi to marry me. I was nervous and shaking and probably cried a little bit. I was convinced that the ring was somehow defective and that the diamond would fall off as we walked around the neighborhood afterwards. But mostly I was just happy.

Later, in the summer, my grandma Childers passed away. Her funeral was the first I’d ever been to. My mom asked me to read a poem. I was definitely nervous and definitely cried a lot, caught up in the memories of driving four hours to her old house, of the shag carpet and Beanie Babies, the smell of home-cooked food in a kitchen with a floor so sloped I could race my Matchbox cars, the first time I watched the Star Wars. And later, moving her up to Bloomington after her eyes and ears started to fail her, visiting her often (but never often enough) at her assisted living apartment, watching my mom give so much time and effort and love to make sure grandma was comfortable and healthy and always knew when the Cubs were on. I’ll always aspire to be as loving and generous and kind as she was. I hope I can be.

And now, some lists:

My Favorite Albums of 2017

  1. The Menzingers – After the Party
  2. Bleachers – Gone Now
  3. Sincere Engineer – Rhombithian
  4. Paramore – After Laughter
  5. Alex Lahey – I Love You Like a Brother
  6. Jason Isbell and the 400 Unit – The Nashville Sound
  7. Phoebe Bridgers – Stranger In the Alps
  8. Day At the Fair – The Epilogue
  9. Nervous Dater – Don’t Be a Stranger
  10. Lorde – Melodrama
  11. Waxahatchee – Out In the Storm
  12. Converge – The Dusk In Us
  13. Forfeit – Perennial
  14. Emperor X – Oversleepers International
  15. Gang of Youths – Go Farther In Lightness
  16. Julien Baker – Turn Out the Lights
  17. Oso Oso – The Yunahon Mixtape
  18. The Mountain Goats – Goths
  19. Sundressed – A Little Less Put Together
  20. Los Campesinos! – Sick Scenes

My Favorite EPs of 2017

  1. The Wonder Years – Burst and Decay
  2. Retirement Party – Strictly Speaking
  3. Jetty Bones – Old Women
  4. Lincoln – A Constant State of Ohio
  5. Baggage – The Good That Never Comes

My Favorite Movies of 2017

  1. Get Out
  2. Coco
  3. Baby Driver
  4. Dunkirk
  5. Lady Bird
  6. A Ghost Story
  7. Columbus
  8. The Big Sick
  9. Star Wars: The Last Jedi
  10. Logan Lucky

My Favorite TV Series of 2017

  1. The Leftovers
  2. Fargo
  3. Mr. Robot
  4. The Good Place
  5. Stranger Things

That list is specifically about TV that aired for the first time this year. If I was including back catalog, my favorite TV experience this year was watching all of Gilmore Girls with Liesi.

My Favorite Books Read In 2017 (any release year applicable)

  1. Wolf In White Van – John Darnielle
  2. Kanye West Owes Me $300 – Jensen Karp
  3. The Familiar Volume 5: Redwood – Mark Z. Danielewski
  4. The Name of the Wind – Patrick Rothfuss
  5. The Silkworm – Robert Galbraith (J.K. Rowling)

My Favorite Live Shows of 2017

  1. Regina Spektor – Chicago Theater – 3/24
  2. John K. Samson – City Winery – 10/23
  3. Paramore – Riot Fest – 9/17
  4. The Wonder Years / Laura Stevenson / Jetty Bones – Bottom Lounge – 9/25
  5. The 1975 / Jimmy Eat World / Bleachers – 5/20

Video Games

Super Mario Odyssey and Mario Kart 8 dominated my gaming time this year. In fact, I hardly played anything else. But my favorite game of 2017 was not a big Nintendo franchise – it was a small, reflective, narrative game called What Remains of Edith Finch. I played it in one sitting a couple months ago and have thought about it nearly every day since. Don’t read too much about it beforehand, just download it an immerse yourself.

Podcasts

By far my favorite podcast episode this year: Roderick On the Line, Ep. 269: “Yelling At the Radio”

Conclusion

I don’t expect you listen to or watch everything on these lists (although I do recommend all of it). I don’t even expect you to read this far. But if you did, thank you. I hope you had a good year. See you in 2018.

Finally, here’s my favorite song of the year.

All In Our File, My Fellow Traveler: 2016 In Review

I started 2016 in a recording studio and I’ll end it on a stage (specifically, Double Door in Wicker Park). Those are fitting bookends for my busiest and most productive music year yet, but I’ll get to that in a moment. First, however, the biggest change in my life this year: After two years in the city, I moved out to the suburbs. Liesi and I got a place together in Villa Park and adopted the best little cat named Jazz. It has been a great seven months so far, and I look forward to many, many more.

The Cubs won the World Series this year. While I’m not a Cubs fan myself and I don’t follow the sport closely anymore, these were the most exciting games I’ve ever watched, and I’m so happy that my friends and family, especially my grandmother, got to see their favorite team on top.

A couple more non-music things:

  • Favorite book I read this year (including non-2016 releases because I don’t keep up with new books outside of my favorite authors): Special Topics In Calamity Physics by Marisha Pessl
  • Favorite movie of the year (with the caveat that I haven’t seen many of the big late fall/early winter releases): Arrival

I went to 90 shows in 2016, the most of any year yet. My favorite was a seated Conor Oberst performance at the beautiful Thalia Hall in Chicago. His setlist included all ten songs on his raw, sparsely arranged new album, Ruminations. True to the recordings, Oberst switched between acoustic guitar and piano and had a baritone guitarist as the sole backing musician.

My Favorite Shows I Attended In 2016

  1. Conor Oberst – Thalia Hall – 11/27
  2. Thursday – Double Door – 9/17
  3. Copeland – Double Door – 12/1
  4. The Junior Varsity – Castle Theater – 9/1
  5. LCD Soundsystem – Lollapalooza – 7/31
  6. Julien Baker – Lincoln Hall – 4/14
  7. Bruce Springsteen – Bradley Center – 3/3
  8. Against Me! – The Metro – 6/19
  9. Ben Folds – Summerfest – 7/9
  10. The Sidekicks – Wicker Park Fest – 7/23

Of the 90 shows I attended, I played at 55 of those, also a record for me. All of my bands got great opportunities this year, but the highlight was Movies About Animals opening for The Junior Varsity at the Castle Theater in Bloomington. The Junior Varsity was a cornerstone of my early interest in music, and I usually cite Wide Eyed as the first album that made me care more about guitar playing than lyrics.

In April, I went on my third tour with City Mouth. We hit new cities around the midwest, got to hang out with Whale Bones again, and made some great friends in our tourmates, Old Fox Road. I’m looking forward to doing a lot more of that in the near future.

My newest band, Pelafina, played our first shows and released our debut EP, Pelafina 64. It was my first experience recording and mixing on my own, and I can’t wait to do more of that with Pelafina and eventually others as well.

I’m not sure how many new albums I listened to in 2016 (maybe I should keep track of that next year), but it felt like there was something new and interesting coming out every week. From the smallest indie bands to the biggest pop stars, every scene and genre seemed to have standout releases, and my own lists are just a miniscule sample of what’s out there.

My pick for album of the year isn’t much of a surprise. John K. Samson has been my favorite songwriter since I discovered the Weakerthans in high school. Like Springsteen writing about New Jersey, Samson is a master at giving his songs a sense of place. The settings on Winter Wheat range from bustling cities to rural dive bars, TV studios to recovery centers, all the forgotten corners of Samson’s native Canada. He even ventures across the Atlantic Ocean for "Fellow Traveler," which takes place in England. In relatively few lines, Samson manages to make each location feel lived in and loved by an ensemble of characters as vividly realized as that of any novel or film. On Winter Wheat the spotlight turns to struggling grad students, eccentric outsiders, beautifully personified trees, of course, a cat named Virtute. It’s a deep and rewarding listen for both fans of the Weakerthans and newcomers to Samson’s work.

Unlike last year, I did decide to rank this list, but the numbering feels arbitrary after the top three, and I can wholeheartedly recommend everything on these lists to just about anyone.

My Favorite Albums of 2016

  1. John K. Samson – Winter Wheat
  2. The Hotelier – Goodness
  3. Jimmy Eat World – Integrity Blues
  4. Pinegrove – Cardinal
  5. Jeff Rosenstock – Worry
  6. Camp Cope – Camp Cope
  7. The 1975 – I Like It When You Sleep For You Are So Beautiful Yet So Unaware of It
  8. Conor Oberst – Ruminations
  9. Touche Amore – Stage Four
  10. All Get Out – Nobody Likes a Quitter
  11. Brian Fallon – Painkillers
  12. Joyce Manor – Cody
  13. Butch Walker – Stay Gold
  14. Chance the Rapper – Coloring Book
  15. Empty Houses – Daydream
  16. Anthony Jay Sanders – I Will Be the One Who Goes
  17. Drive-by Truckers – American Band
  18. Balance and Composure – Light We Made
  19. Mitski – Puberty 2
  20. Yellowcard – Yellowcard

A few bands who released really solid EPs this year deserve honorable mentions. These are all midwest bands, some local and some from a little further out, who are making this a really exciting time and place to be involved in the music scene.

  • Hot Mulligan – Opportunities
  • Kayak Jones – Memoir
  • Classic Schmosby – Part 1: Makeshift Happiness
  • Everyone Leaves – The Lonely End
  • Short Handed – Peace of Mind

My Favorite Songs of 2016

  1. Mitski – "Your Best American Girl"
  2. The Menzingers – "Lookers"
  3. John K. Sampson – "Virtute At Rest"
  4. The 1975 – "Paris"
  5. Pinegrove – "Old Friends"
  6. Chance the Rapper – "Same Drugs"
  7. The Hotelier – "Two Deliverances"
  8. Butch Walker – "Wilder In the Heart"
  9. Brian Fallon – "Red Lights"
  10. Conor Oberst – "Till St. Dymphna Kicks Us Out"
  11. Touche Amore – "Flowers and You"
  12. David Bowie – "I Can’t Give Everything Away"
  13. Jimmy Eat World – "You Are Free"
  14. Joyce Manor – "Fake ID"
  15. Modern Baseball – "Just Another Face"

"Challenge" by Anthony Sanders gets an honorable mention since he still hasn’t released a studio version, but I listened to the live recordings more than anything else this year. Rarely, if ever, have I heard a song that speaks so strongly to my own experiences and emotions about choosing not to drink.

So what’s to come in 2017? As I write this, I’m listening to the masters of the full-length album that Movies About Animals spent all year recording. It’s my favorite record that I’ve ever been a part of, and it will be out in January. Pelafina’s EP will be getting a reissue in January as well, with some of the recording touched up and a new mixing and mastering job. City Mouth is almost done writing a new EP that should be out in the first half of the year. Between all of my bands, I’m playing fifteen shows in the first two months of 2017 (hopefully this winter is a mild one). As always, keep an eye on this page for upcoming dates.

As always, if you come to my shows, listen to my records, support anything I do in any way, including just reading what I write here, there’s no way I can thank you enough.

See you next year.